I thought, long and hard, about it and decided that instead of honouring death I should honour life. Therefore I then made the decision to publish this post with respect ,not only to my mother but to all the mothers out there including my Ngono (grandmother) whom I am already missing and saddened by her death.
Rest In Peace Ngono, you are always in my heart..
I pray that God will bless my entire family, especially my father, my aunts and uncles through this difficult time...I wish that I was with you all...but am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
Let us celebrate the life that my Ngono lived while celebrating the lives and strength of all mother's - all of whom are still alive or have sadly passed on.
12-06-2013…
This year has been one of many first...and the one “first” I dreaded the most was spending the first Mother’s Day of my whole existence away from home and away from my mother.
My mother and I have not had the best relationship
throughout the years which is not hard to believe as two strong, very
opinionated women are bound to bump heads once too often…we disagree on a lot
of things and see the world very differently…but funny enough we are very
similar in different ways. And I have therefore learnt a lot of things from
her.
My mother has taught me the importance of self-reliance and independence;
she has showed me that in life you need to find strength within yourself. You
need to be your own best friend first…In loneliness, I am often reminded of her words “In
life, you were born alone and you will most probably die alone”- meaning that
you need to realize you are one being that needs to find comfort in yourself in
all that you do especially when required to do it alone.
She has driven the value of an education into my life. My mother has been the biggest supporter and cheerleader when it came to my academic achievement. She always encouraged me to perform at my best whether at school or university…She would go the extra mile to help me achieve my goals -no matter the cost, even if it meant she would go without something. Her belief in the value of an education is the reason that my siblings and I have been fortunate enough to attend great schools and varsities.
My mama has been one of the reasons that I am a lover of words and writing. From a young age, she would often challenge me at Scrabble- letting me beat her once in a while I might add…She encouraged me to be open to learning and reading things that I never had before.
She showed me, through her actions, how important it is to give! Whether it is to those less fortunate or to those that she loves…often I feel she gives too much and leaves too little for herself.
My mother has also allowed me to find myself and the person that I choose to be…although it has not come with much silence from her, she has always allowed me to try things out and fail/ succeed in order to learn from them.
She has taught me the importance of faith and prayer- without forcing it upon me. My mother has often told me that faith and God has blessed her throughout her life and that she wishes we could all share in this wonderful gift of faith…
I have only mentioned a few of the many things that my mama
has taught me and blessed me with…I just pray that God may bless her with all
her deepest of wishes and hopes. I pray that she may find comfort in the fact
that I might not always agree with her but I continue to love her none the less.
I hope that all of you may find content in the relationships
that you have with your mothers, realizing that she is her own person before
she is a mother to you. May you find forgiveness for all the times she
has failed you while proclaiming with joy the times that she has been a blessing in your
life…
They say that-''God could not be everywhere...that is why he gave us mothers..'' therefore may we all find the strength to make everyday a Happy Mother’s Day for
all the mothers and mother-figures in our lives.
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